The traveler…

O my secret within my secret, O my solace when the world is empty, O my light when the paths of the soul are darkened, O my love when hearts are stingy.
I am the one who wanders in the wilderness of my soul, stumbling in the darkness of my selfishness, and carrying within my ribs a weak hope. Were it not for Your forbearance I would not have walked, were it not for Your mercy I would not have taken a step, and were it not for Your light I would not have been guided.
O Lord, Creator of beauty, Source of life, take my hand, take my heart, take my soul, and cast me onto Your safe shore, where no darkness covers the sight, nor does my soul veil the heart.
Sunset taught me the lesson of defeat, and the darkness whispered to me that light does not disappear, but rather closed hearts disappear from it.
You taught me that the true night is the night of the soul, and when its chains are broken, dawn emerges from the deepest depths.
Praise be to You for guiding me to cross over, and thanks be to You for opening for me the door of love when the doors of the world were closed.
O You whose heart is not constricted by the questioning of those who ask, and who does not tire of the moaning of those who hope, I ask You to plant in my heart a love that does not perish, an awareness that is not closed, and a longing that does not subside except by being with You.
O my Lord, make me a gentle breeze that blows with Your pleasure, a small ray that carries from Your light, and a calm wave that flows by Your command.
Do not leave me to myself for even a moment, and do not make me a burden on the path of those who journey to You.
I acknowledge my weakness to You, and I confess my poverty, and I cling to Your mercy as drowning women cling to a piece of driftwood.
O Lord, You who hold the keys to secrets, open for me the door of Your understanding, and grant me the certainty of the patient, and remove from me the veil of my pride, and free me from my chains, the chains of the heavy ego.
Take me to You, take me on the wings of love, take me in the breezes of awareness, take me until I am annihilated from myself, and live only through You.
I want to walk to you not with the strength of my feet, but with the desire of my heart, to see you in everything, to witness you in every breath, to breathe your memory as I breathe air.
O God, make me a house empty of all but You, a dwelling place for Your light, and a place for Your secrets.
Do not let the world distract me from You, and do not let what You have given me keep me from its Giver.
I am your servant who stutters in his supplication, who cries in his silence, and rejoices in his sorrow when he finds you closer to him than himself.
Increase my love, increase my awareness, increase my closeness, and increase my death to myself and my life through You.
O Light of Lights, O Truth of Truth, O Beloved of Souls, take me to where You are, and guide me on the path of those You have favored, and cover me with Your beautiful covering, until I meet You with a pure heart, clear, empty except for You. Amen.
Dedicated to Jihad.